Life is not simple anymore as I wish... What is the meaning of life? I'm really clueless... I always hide my feeling to everyone, but not u... That is why until now i still not understand, what I live for... U r the 1 one made I open my heart for u. Lastly, u still keep feeling I hiding and fake feeling towards u... U know how hurt if there is someone who trust u, just want together with u to share ur burden, stresssness, sadness, pressure, happiness, joy and etc... But in the end, u still said or not trust the one.
I not sure why, I appreciate, accept, love the person like u... May be this call love power. I hope u understand it, love is blind, if u really love someone, u will do whatever stuff for ur love one, even the stupid stuff... May be I'm too stupid... Love can't be calculate, just do what u feel is right.
Sometimes, it might be miscommunication. But I believe, no matter how it will be, the result or the end is full with sweetness.
Together with u is the most enjoy, relax, happy stuff for everyday. Life is getting hard, I wish u might understand it in someday. Fighting for the tough life...
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Sunday, June 5, 2016
Is was a great day he suggest go his house swim + movie n bring along with more clothes as go trip... I was very happy thinking that so sweet... u gonna bring me somewhere overnight...lolx... just notice his sis is back taiping...he ask to stay his house with him... think to made him breakfast on the next day...we go to grocery to shop for ingredient, it was terrible ever, it was my very 1st time made him breakfast n I even didn't made for any1 else beside than family... but thing not going smooth... I almost burn his house during frying hash brown... omg... I'm so speechless... my most fear stuff fire... I still can't overcome it after I was burn on my hand when I was small during tanglung festival, I guess around age around 6-8 that time... , n this time, I really duno wat else I can said... fire is my nightmare again though I been go through it several time without fear... now again... I was disappointed n felt sorry on him... I was suggest for dinner at home, might be affraid of on fire again, i din't want to fry stuff this round, but he so nice, he cook me spaghetti and honeydew dessert, best n delicious dish ever... I am feeling I'm a loser for everything, even can't made a thing goes well properly... I am feeling so lovely on the next day morning, he made a fried heart shape bread with ice cream, I so like it...melting my heart awh... so like it... overall still goes well, but he will stop me fried thing anymore... I m the 1 suggest to do meal tgt, the end... he done the most... haiz... but I really enjoy the moment we made meal tgt... very lovely... I know he is kinda tired for making meal, as not his job, sorry, but I wish we can tgt like this sweet n lovely forever, because life is can b very simply and lot of happiness